Macaulay Culkin and Kieran Culkin.Photo: Richard Corkery/NY Daily News Archive/Getty

Macaulay Culkin and brother Kieran are on hand at Gonzalez y Gonzalez for the opening night party for the musical “Summer of ‘42."

Kieran Culkinis reflecting on some of the darker aspects of how brotherMacaulay Culkinbecame a household name after they starred together inHome Alone.

In a new digital cover feature forEsquire, theSuccessionactor — who played Fuller McCallister, a cousin of Macaulay’s prankster protagonist Kevin McCallister, in the 1990 holiday classic — recallshow uncomfortable the newfound famewas not only for his sibling but their entire family.

“Poor f—ing guy,” Kieran added in his conversation withEsquire. “He was little and having to try to accept that level of fame as reality.”

Despite the downsides of fame, Kieran and Macaulay have both continued their acting careers since, as has their younger brotherRory Culkin.

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Kieran Culkin Says He Felt Bad About Brother Macaulay Culkin’s ‘Home Alone’ Fame: ‘Poor F—ing Guy’

And once he started hearing the word “career” applied to his own work, he “flipped out,” Kieran admitted toEsquire.

Due to having seen what Macaulay went through, “I had this unhealthy relationship with what I did for a living,” he told the magazine.

“I really wanted to do it, but I didn’t want to be successful at it,” Kieran explained.

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Kieran Culkin Says He Felt Bad About Brother Macaulay Culkin’s ‘Home Alone’ Fame: ‘Poor F—ing Guy’

Back in November 2021, while he hostedSaturday Night Livefor the first time, Kieranrecalled his childhood experience when Macaulay hostedthe show in 1991, after starring inHome Alone.

“I have been on this very stage,” the actor said. “I was on an episode ofSNLback when my brother Mac hosted 30 years ago. I was 9 years old, I got to be in three sketches — two of which are non-problematic.”

“And at the end of the show, I got to be on the stage for the good nights,” Kieran added, as a flashback clip came on the screen. “So, there’s my brother and the cast is lifting him up on their shoulders. … My brother’s up there, he’s got his arm up all victorious and I’m down thereon the ground like, ‘Me, I want uppies!’ "

“So, check out what I do next. I askedKevin Nealonto pick me up! He goes, ‘Yeah, okay, sure,’ " he continued.

“Anyway, I wanted to show that clip for two reasons,” Kieran added. “One, in the hopes that someone from the cast will pick me up again at the end of the show. And two, because I have waited 30 years to be back on this stage and say, ‘We’ve got a great show for you tonight, so stick around, we’ll be right back!’ "

source: people.com