Photo: Chelsea Rae Photography
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“When I found out I had lost her, I blacked out. It felt like my world just went numb. I couldn’t even cry,” Karr tells PEOPLE. “I just felt like I had to puke and I wouldn’t wish this pain on anyone. It was like my whole world just stopped and went black. I couldn’t talk, I couldn’t cry, I couldn’t do anything. I just laid there. It felt like a part of me died right then and there.”
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“It really hit me that I was no longer pregnant and she was gone. When they took her away I just broke down and I couldn’t stop crying,” Karr says. “Holding her, having her in my arms even though she was so small and she was gone, it kind of brought some peace to me. She just looked so perfect and so peaceful.”
The parents, who share a 3-year-old son, Oliver, left the hospital devastated, and struggled to cope with the difficult loss.
So, it was a shock to the couple when, just over two months later, Karr learned she was pregnant again. Despite the good news, Karr says she and Brodmerkle wouldn’t let themselves get too excited about the new pregnancy.
In one shot from the powerful photo series, Karr holds her belly with colorful clouds of smoke behind her.
The striking photo has garnered attention from social media users everywhere. And Karr, who first shared her story withLove What Matters, says the outpouring of support has warmed her heart.
“It’s been so cool that my daughter’s story is being so heard,” the mom of two tells PEOPLE. “I’ve had so many other women reach out to me saying how my story has touched them, and how they never talked about their loss. It’s such a taboo thing. It makes me feel so good that I’m helping so many women feel less alone and feel more open to talking about their loss. It’s made me feel so good and Chloe, I know she would be so proud.”
source: people.com
